Captivating
They Speak to me.
Their hands reaching out for Me.
Their Colors captivating the night sky.
Dark Forbidden Indigo and Violet.
They linger for brief moments,
Then Bleed into warmth,
Into Fire,
Into Brightly Painted Roses.
My lens captures the idea,
But not the Image,
The Emotion,
The Essence.
I Bleed with them.
I Become them.
They are my Shelter,
And I their very own Kin.
I am warmed by them,
Their comforting Arms.
I am Cooled by them,
Their Heavenly Breath of Life.
I am Free.
Just as that Notion crosses my mind,
I am once again transported back to my reality,
My Hell.
Waves of Fear and Remorse Crash into my being.
I am in the Car,
Riding towards the place I use as a Home.
A Home like all Homes,
That even in Dreams,
I Could never Grasp,
With My hands of Ownership.
The bills are flooding my mind,
The Creek of Finance has been Stopped Up,
Been Damned for what Feels like an Eternal Future.
I look back into the Dusk Sky.
The Clouds are just that; Clouds.
Nothing more.
Something Wondrous to Gaze at.
But Beings Completely Unattainable.
Locked away in my Glass Chest,
I Begin to Fade.
My Mind is stuck on this,
This Narrow,
This Dark,
This Horrifying Path.
My Future is Unclear.
I am Losing myself.
I am Alone.
Their hands reaching out for Me.
Their Colors captivating the night sky.
Dark Forbidden Indigo and Violet.
They linger for brief moments,
Then Bleed into warmth,
Into Fire,
Into Brightly Painted Roses.
My lens captures the idea,
But not the Image,
The Emotion,
The Essence.
I Bleed with them.
I Become them.
They are my Shelter,
And I their very own Kin.
I am warmed by them,
Their comforting Arms.
I am Cooled by them,
Their Heavenly Breath of Life.
I am Free.
Just as that Notion crosses my mind,
I am once again transported back to my reality,
My Hell.
Waves of Fear and Remorse Crash into my being.
I am in the Car,
Riding towards the place I use as a Home.
A Home like all Homes,
That even in Dreams,
I Could never Grasp,
With My hands of Ownership.
The bills are flooding my mind,
The Creek of Finance has been Stopped Up,
Been Damned for what Feels like an Eternal Future.
I look back into the Dusk Sky.
The Clouds are just that; Clouds.
Nothing more.
Something Wondrous to Gaze at.
But Beings Completely Unattainable.
Locked away in my Glass Chest,
I Begin to Fade.
My Mind is stuck on this,
This Narrow,
This Dark,
This Horrifying Path.
My Future is Unclear.
I am Losing myself.
I am Alone.